Why Is Job/Internship Searching So Frustrating?

First, let me apologize for my sudden disappearance from this site. School has gotten extremely intense, and with finals approaching, I’ve been dedicating most of my time to studying. And as we come closer to summer, I’ve been scrambling to search for a summer job and/or internship. However, my search has brought nothing but endless frustration. Continue reading “Why Is Job/Internship Searching So Frustrating?”

What Am I Doing In College?

Supposedly, I’m here to earn a degree in Marketing. To spend countless hours absorbing knowledge and preparing myself to enter the fabulous field of business. Supposedly. 

Honestly, I’m not sure why I’m here or why I’m trying to major in marketing. I’ve never pictured myself as a business woman, and I don’t have any desire to ever become one. In fact, I don’t think I’ve ever pictured myself as a college student either. I never took the college process seriously. I was always casually shrugging when people asked what classes I was excited about or if I was excited to even be on campus. Even now, as I near the end of my first semester, I still don’t feel excited about any part of my college experience. At most, I can offer up a fake smile and lies about how swell college is.

Maybe I’m in the wrong major. Maybe I just need to take a class that interests me. Truthfully, I haven’t felt interested in anything for a long time. At least there’s only a week left in the semester.

The Smallest Thanksgiving

Holidays are huge events in my families. From Valentines Day, to the Fourth of July, to Christmas, we always go all out. And Thanksgiving is no exception. But this year, our Thanksgiving lacked it’s usual bang. My sister couldn’t fly home and my dad was in the Bahamas for work, leaving me and my mom alone.

Despite the fact that Thansgiving would be a (horrendously) small event, my mom and I went through our usual rituals. We spent hours hunched over the stove as made ham, macaroni, collard greens, and slutty brownies. We dutifully laid out our cutlery and dishes and even gave a quick speech about the things we were grateful for.

As we ate, we reminisced on previous Thanksgiving dinners. We remembered how my mom used to prepare big meals for what felt like the entirety of the DMV. How we would fly down to my sister or even to my Nana’s house for some Thanksgiving. Or how we would have thanksgiving dinners with just the immediate family.

Thinking back on our huge thanksgiving dinners only made me realize just how small this year’s dinner was. I mean, there was only two of us. Still, we had a great time and we managed to keep a fun lively atmosphere. I guess it doesn’t matter how many people you’re with; it’s who you’re with that matters.

Reconnecting

This weekend I had the wonderful opportunity to reconnect with a high school friend. We hadn’t seen each other in a while, and we both were eager to finally get some time face-to-face.

We spent the day together watching all three “High School Musical” movies, and playing video games. We even managed to sneak in a quick game of scrabble. Honestly, it was the best part of my weekend. There’s just something about seeing old friends that makes everything feel a little bit better.

Sadly that feeling didn’t last forever. It wasn’t long before I was back at school, spending all my free time working on my final project. Luckily, I’m going to see a lot more of my high school friends this weekend.

Back At It

It’s been a while since I’ve last been able to draw. Recently, I worked on a piece for my sister and I drew two smaller pieces just to get some practice in. I posted the pictures of the smaller pictures on my Instagram, and was excited by the positive feedback. This weekend I’m planning on finishing my sister’s piece and starting on a piece for my cousin. I’m just excited that despite my heavy workload I can still find time to do something I love.